Hypercritical

So, I’m sitting in bed, putting off doing anything but snuggling with my dogs because I’m getting so overwhelmed with holiday planning, and this lady is basically insulting everything that everyone does to help her because she doesn’t like herself. Its irritating me because I just don’t understand why people act that way, about anything not just their own looks. Yes, I have had to fight quite a few fights with myself over how I think I look and how I don’t like myself, but I’m in the process of getting over it. I feel like if people would look past the end of their nose and past the reflection in the mirror, their life would be so much more enjoyable.
I have dealt with weight issues myself for almost 10 years. I was borderline anorexic in high school, took any kind of diet pill that I could and tried any kind of “miracle” weight loss cleanse and detox I heard about, all with my mother’s approval. But even when I was in a situation where I was so broke that we couldn’t buy food so I was literally starving, I didn’t think I was skinny. My friends and family said I came home with a hollowed face and sunken in cheeks because of not eating but I didn’t see it. But now, I’m back to my curvy belly and almost double chin but I’m happier. I tell myself every day that I have an amazing man who married me for me and he loves the way I look. I am working out and eating better because I want to be healthier and if the weight comes of I will be ecstatic. But I have learned that being hypercritical does not do anything to improve your life. All it does is make you miserable.
To me, there is no reason to be so stressed out about everything. There are times when I get super stressed (like right now with all this Thanksgiving planning and prepping!) and I just get so sick that I am reminded how much easier it is if you avoid the stress. If you don’t like something and you can change it, then change it. If you can’t change it then move one. That’s how I live my life. If you have choices, then figure out which one is better for you and do it. To me, that seems simple enough. I just don’t want to deal with all the drama. I’m a married adult, I’m going to act like one.

(I feel like I’ve rambled on and on but I’ve been thinking about it for a while so…that’s my brain.)

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